I wish I knew how scared other people would be, as if they could catch death just by being near me.
I wish I knew how many people would slowly fade away from me.
I wish I knew how incredibly hard it is to tell people how scared you are.
I wish I knew that every road led forward; there was no “getting back” to anything.
I wish I knew that it was ok to be terrified; it doesn’t mean you’re not strong.
I wish I knew that despite everything, I would be unbelievably proud of myself.
I wish I knew that the doctors could make lots of mistakes and they would not apologize.
I wish I knew that sometimes you have to say no; I deserve better care than this.
I wish I knew how guilty I’d feel when other cancer patients died.
I wish I knew that after the smoke cleared I would still feel adrift.
I wish I knew that just because treatment was over, my body didn’t know we were safe.
I wish I knew that every card sent in the mail would feel like the most precious gift.
I wish I knew that I would find support in the most unexpected places.
I wish I knew that there were so many people I’d never meet who would pray for me every night.
I wish I knew that eventually food would be delicious again.
I wish I knew that other people looked at me as a source of strength on their hard days.
I wish I knew that my gratitude would continue to grow exponentially.
I wish I knew that safety is never a permanent thing; it is ok to search for it.
I wish I knew how much I’d be able to comfort others by sharing my stories.
I wish I knew that every sunset would feel like the very first one.
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That’s so beautiful Sarah! I remember all those years ago in book club, not knowing how it would go and you amazed me.
Thanks Juliet! 😊