Did I Ask for Cancer?

Did I Ask for Cancer?

Did I ask?

I didn’t choose cancer

But I did ask for it

I asked for humility
And cancer took my careen
I became a beginner

I asked for freedom
And cancer gave me space
I became unattached

I asked for intimacy
And cancer took my marriage
I became my friend

I asked for abundance
And cancer gave me grief
I became grateful

I asked for healing
And cancer gave me sickness
I became whole

I asked for transparency
And cancer took my ability to cope
I became vulnerable

I asked for kindness
And cancer gave me tragedy
I became compassionate

I asked for a family
And cancer took my womb
I became community

I asked for enlightenment
And cancer gave me suffering
I became grace

I asked for experiences
And cancer took my time
I became present

I asked for strength
And cancer gave me struggle
I became persistent

I asked for intensity
And cancer took my vigor
I became gentle

I asked for wisdom
And cancer took my reasoning
I became a student

I asked for growth
And cancer gave me pain
I became patient

I asked for energy
And cancer gave me stillness
I became slow

I asked for influence
And cancer took my identity
I became understanding

I asked to be helpful
And cancer gave me dependence
I became intentional

I asked for confidence
And cancer took my stability
I became courageous

I asked for serenity
And cancer gave me clarity
I became peace

I asked for truth
Cancer took my answers
I became honest

I asked for direction
Cancer took my map
I became aware

I asked for light
And cancer gave me darkness
I became love

I asked for a spiritual awakening
Cancer gave me despair
I became an alchemist

Be careful what you ask for
Because it will come
Just not like you expect
For everything that cancer gave and took
It left me with a seed
And I will tend to it till the end
These lessons have become
My gold and gems

This article was featured in the December 2024 “Expectations” issue of Elephants and Tea Magazine! Click here to read our magazine issues.